We are fast closing the 2008 year and stepping forward into 2009. What does that mean to you? Eleanor Roosevelt said, "The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams." I ask you, can we really embrace the beauty of our dreams when we continue to cling to our past?
I have a strong belief that, in order to move forward into our dreams, we must learn to release our past. There is little "happy" in dragging the past into the future. This is definitely baggage we should check and leave somewhere. But, why is it so difficult for us to release the remains of yesterday and move forward with our lives? It's not as though we enjoy being stuck in those painful and frustrating moments of drama. Yet, often we carry painful memories with us year after year. We seem stuck in the ugly murk and the longer we remain stuck in our dark past, the more the fear and misery control and wound us.
Let's think of some of the things that cling to us as we move into the new year: divorce, abuse, death, losing a job, being passed over for the promotion, being taken for granted, financial failure, disfunctional families, forclosures, evictions, drugs and alcohol, glass ceilings, terroism, elections, war, a stolen parking space, muggings, rapes, car crashes, failed health, etc. These are all dark, distressing, and disappointing experiences. Were these times horrible? Did they cut deep wounds into our spirits? Yes.
It is understandable that we would have trouble letting go of these memories, as they are a part of us. Yet, often, they are not just a "part" of our life experiences, they have become the biggest part. The very mention of the unhappy memory triggers the fear, anger, and pain we have attached to that rememberence. We seem to move through our lives in normal fashion because the painful moments have been pushed down, buried. However, they resurface when the our so called button is pushed. At that moment, all the original emotions come bursting from the murk. Why? Because we have decided to hold on to them instead of taking responsibility for them.
I'm not saying we are to take responsibility for the events themselves, but to take responsibility for the way we handle our emotions resulting from these events. We have choices. If we fail to make a choice, then the negative energy surrounding these painful events and memories will continue to rage out of control. Recognizing this truth will give you the power to step away from the event and to move forward. Remember, the more energy we give to the memory, the longer it will stay with us and the larger it will become. Release yourself from the prison like hold these past experiences have on you.
Now, the big "HOW" appears on the horizon of our lives. Is this an easy process? Not usually. However, to be rid of the pain, we must experience, face, and walk through the Terror Barrier* connected to the event. Today, I want to give you some tools to help in the process.
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Acknowledge the pain: Allow yourself to feel what you avoided the first time around. Don't hold back. Let all the emotions run full course. Cry, scream, write it out. Tell that person exactly what you think about them. Don't hold back, no one is going to see it but you. You are in control here, not the event.
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Forgive: Forgiveness may take time. It is not an overnight happening. You don't just make a decision to forgive someone and then everything is ok. It is a process, a choice that may take practice. Realize that forgiveness benefits YOU, not the one who hurt you. By refusing to forgive the other person, you are keeping yourself where they put you: in the victim's role. Forgiving someone does NOT mean you are condoning what they did. It does not mean you absolve them of their guilt. It means you no longer hold yourself at their mercy. You release the hold their actions have on you. You cease to give any energy to the feeding of this event.
Often we feel we have moved on, but if a memory can continue to cause you fear, anger, or pain, the healing has not happened and you can not move on to your dreams. Someone once told me that the difference between avoidance and letting go is in the choice. Avoidance is a subconscious act of fear while letting go is a healthy, conscious decision.
As we look forward to our New Year, lets spend some time making a conscious decision to face our Terrior Barrier* and move through the fear. Our dreams are waiting.
Linda Kick here, wishing you Success in all things.
*Terror Barrier, (noun) a mythical wall of fear that stops all progress and forward movement.